Why does it take the promise of a new year to be reflective?
Here I sit, falling into the cliches of being nostalgic now that the new year is a few days away. So it goes. I guess cliches wouldn’t be true if they didn’t hold some truth.
So much has changed this year. Right off the bat, I don’t feel like I’ve changed to much, but when I think of who I was December 31, 2010 and who I am now, I think it’s safe to say that my attitude and outlook have definitely changed. I’ve finally gotten to the point where I don’t care if the situation becomes awkward or uncomfortable, I am going to be upfront about things. I know that would have done me some good in past relationships and I’m sorry for taking so long to be upfront. I’m always going to be who I want to be and no one is going to change me. I cannot change anyone either and I’ve learned to accept that, no matter how hard I pushed in the past.
2012 brings a lot of promises. Promises that I hope are fulfilled. I’ve stumbled upon a different career path, which makes so much sense now, but I’m trying to figure out where to go with it. The promise of moving with my three (hopefully four) best friends after our roadtrip makes me very excited for the future. Although, the move won’t happen until mid or end of 2012 due to graduation. I’m still hopeful and I’m still excited.
But for now, it’s still 2011 and I still have a few days left to continue to make memories. Even if Christopher and I are trying to get all of our bad decisions out of our system… I am still a pretty good kid and I know things will end on a high note as I ring in the new year without male or friend drama with two of my best friends.
I am ending this asking for forgiveness to anyone I have hurt in this past year, while forgiving those who have hurt me. And to quote my favorite band who is still together, fun.: Let your lungs fill up with smoke. Forgive everyone.
